A Prayer For Awareness In Love

Most Precious Lord Jesus, Gentle And Wonderful God, Truly Awesome And Ever-present Holy Spirit,
Precious Lord Jesus, I love you.
You are a being of true love.
There are times I think I understand you.
There are other times I am totally baffled.
I am baffled because I understand you one minute and at the next minute it seems you are a totally mystery.
However, whether I understand you or not, I do understand and I do know with absolute certainty, you are a being of true love.
I also know, you demand from me absolute obedience.
I try to be obedient.
Most of the time I am obedient.
However, sometimes I fall down, make mistakes, and do what I know is sinful in your eyes.
I do not fall down, make mistakes, and do what I know is sinful on purpose.
I fall down, make mistakes, and do what is sinful without any intent other than pleasing myself.
However, every time I fall down, make mistakes, and do what is sinful, I am deeply grieved and disappointed in myself.
I know you get disappointed in me too.
I am so sorry, Lord.
I am so sorry.
Please help me change.
Help me be aware of what I am doing before I do it.
Help me be aware of what I am doing while I am doing it.
Help me be aware of what I have done after I have done it.
Help me raise my awareness of my inner life.
Help me raise my awareness of you and your love flowing through my life.
Help me give to people who ask me to give, and help me lend to those wanting to borrow from me.
In obedience to your love, help me truly and fully love my enemies and pray for those who persecute me.
All these things I humbly pray in the name of my most Blessed Lord Jesus Christ, my Mighty God, and my Ever-present Holy Spirit upon whom I can rely.
Amen